little suprises

I am weak!

To be honest, there are definitely days when I feel like I've had enough and need to hide in my room to be alone for a while. It typically comes after some double-booked appointments, a list of too many "To Do's", and failed attempts to multi-task. Other times, however, there isn't a reason.

Yesterday fit into the latter. I guess it was a typical full day, but there wasn't any apparent reason for me to dread Bible study. 'Dread' may be a strong word in this case, but needless to say- I wasn't in the mood. I didn't think I could be enthusiastic or prepared enough for my freshmen girls....but I couldn't consider cancelling- we were completing the 5th chapter of the Crux study! The Crux is an initial 5 week study on FOCUSequip that lays down the foundation of Jesus. Many students enter in already knowing about Jesus...but usually have never considered the Gospel message before and why Jesus matters in their lives. The fifth chapter is the end: the most important tie-it-all-together chapter. The plan is to finish the Crux and individually recap with the students- making a specific invite to them to pursue a relationship with Jesus....and there I was prepping for Bible study not really wanting to go.  ....What?!

I went....and only one girl showed up. Another temptation to call it quits- but we carried on!

Our study started with her sharing how she had been implementing a new method of prayer I taught them last week. She was so excited about it and even shared it with her roommate! (uh...she's a little miss evangelizer and she doesn't even know it!) From there, we had the beautiful opportunity to talk about Jesus being "the way, the truth, and the life" (John 14:6) and where her relationship with Jesus is. If Jesus is who He says He is...and if He is the way to Heaven, then wouldn't we want to follow Him?? What are the repercussions if we don't? Who is He, what did He do...and why does it matter?? A lot of times we become desensitized to this very reality- thinking we are too far removed in time and space from the pivotal moment that someone proved His love for us by dying in the most embarrassing and gruesome way...and who would have done it still even if you were the only one alive.

wow. Wait, I almost considered passing this up?! hold the phone!

Our conversation went well beyond the typical question-answer-awkward-silence that comes with fresh Bible studies. Last night, my lone attendee was hungry to learn how to be in relationship with Jesus and not just go through the motions anymore. Our time together was full of "aha!" moments, connections made from previous discussions, and resolutions to move forward.

Thank you, Jesus, for leading me to study!!

I left the University Center repeating praise to God, while realizing the attacks of war the evil one wages on campus and this mission. Whether that be through my own concupiscence or the trials of a hard day- God's grace is sufficient for me- His power is made perfect in my weakness  (2 Corinthians 12:9)  I should never trust my bad moods amidst the mission; they are fleeting- and typically a sign that God has great plans in store!



Thank you God for having mercy on me. I am weak and simple-minded, and can't lead anyone to you without your help...as I can't even love you without your help!  Thank you for bringing others to yourself and letting me be your little missionary, allowing me to play a small role in it all. This is how disciples are made, Jesus- how exciting! Please help us follow you along your path to Heaven!